dorianxexplorer's Journal

SHIT
i'm single now, my waterbed has a leak in it, my car is dying, my computer automatically logs me out as soon as i log in, the room i was supposed to move into in orlando isn't happening because the dude 'decided to stay', and all my shifts at work were given to another employee's friend that just started working so i quit. if you can fix any of these things please let me know. except the single thing, i don't need girlfriends right now LOLYZZ

Current Music: graves at sea

thanks to everyone that went to our first show, it was really fun and really hilarious

crossing my fingers that this house in orlando works out.... if it does (mi casa su casa) i'll be moving back to town in about a month which is great because i'm sick of snakes in my yard and spiders in my room. i love animals but those creepy crawlers are definitely not my faves right

Current Music: career suicide

whatup

Current Music: pissed jeans

i'm really bad at college and everything else

my car keeps overheating and shoots green ooze all over the place
and i'm failing my math class

but i'm almost a subsitute teacher which isn't really a huge achievement by any means but its pretty cool i guess

mary bought me these vitamins called 'VEGAN IRON MAN' because apparently i'm really pale and too skinny and just not healthy

i've been reading leo tolstoy's essays on god and its really interesting stuff. i just finished failed states and my head is about to fall off

?? why is it cold again ??

Current Music: eyehategod

update
i haven't had internet in awhile, we moved to deland in the middle of nowhere so we have dial-up now (WAHOO!)

anyway i worked a 13 and a half hour shift yesterday and my legs are killing me, i saw four bro fights downtown which was pretty sweet, and two girls asked me to have sex with them in their car which was creepy. i made $240 which i thought was pretty damn good for having a fixed gear bike.

oh and spring break in atlanta was pretty hilarious. i have to do homework now ( i hate school ) ok bibuy

Current Music: my bloody valentine

i fell through the floor of our attic today and my head really hurts. i also have a rash or something from the fiberglass/insulation whatever. little parts are bleeding and it goes all the way down my arm. OUCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

anyway if anyone is looking for a place to live, i have a place, its 675 for a two bedroom, in winter park, bike distance from a lot of places. its basically perfect (IT HAS A PORCH AND A BACKYARD ) so if you'd like to move in with me, please let me know! i am the best roomate you will ever have IPROMISE

Current Music: kc milian/la quiete

I got home and one of our cats wanted to play and i didn't feel like it so after ten minutes of me ignoring it it went and pissed on a silver jews record i just bought happy valentines day

Current Music: not silver jews

so they finally sold the house here so i need a new place to live if anyone knows anything please let me know thanks!!!! =)

i hate how 'indie rock' is all of a sudden 'popular' i wish these fucking morons i see everyday would get a fucking grip and go back to listening to techno instead of having shins ringtones and hollow personalities.

i hate how much lifetime's new record fucking sucks but i guess you can say the same for 98% of hardcore nowadays its all just mindless superficial garbage that brainless kids eat up and spend their parents' money on their shirts and records for scene cred

music is turning into a giant fucking joke and if you love really music then i think you really should to be more outspoken about it.

Current Music: discordance axis

in florida forests of our forefathers' day, hunters waited patiently for game. in modern day florida's deadbeat main-streets their counterparts lay in wait for the same between the wig shops and the dollar stores. Ill-eyed cops setting up shop cruising the park. we see not much has changed but context, vernacular, date and name.

Current Music: man man

i am going to kill myself
i am going to drive my car off a bridge

since the police stole my license, i cannot cash checks. and without the ability to cash checks, i cannot get my license unsuspended to recieve a new one. thus bringing a dead stop to my life because i have no other forms of identification other than a school id that doesn't count work for anything except movie discounts. now i can't buy books for school. !~thanks OPD~! =)

in other news, i wrote a formal complaint about the officer that pulled me over the other day and gave me hell, and will personally be delivering it to the orlando police department. i know it won't do anything but at least my mind will be a little more at ease. actually, it probably wont be at ease but whatever i'm going to do it anyway because fuck the police thats why

Current Music: hot water music

i hate my life and i hate the police i don't know what i hate more but the police have made me hate my life so i guess i hate them a little bit more.

on that note if anyone knows any place thats hiring please let me know. I have over a grand to pay just to get my feet on the ground and pedicabbing makes me an average of SIX DOLLARS AN HOUR after insurance and the rental fees. I need money for school super super bad. I'm selling all my records/band shirts and some music equipment so if i have something that you want please let me know about that too thanks so muchhhhhhhhjhkjdsakldjl

Current Music: eyehate MY LIFE

I finally get to bike downtown so if anyone needs a ride just hit me up i'll be riding a stupid red bike with lights on it.

Current Music: saves the day

everything really sucks and i can't solve any of my problems or any of my friends' problems so i just feel completely useless. and then being upset about something that i have no real reason to be upset about makes everything even more shitty. fdjslkfjdkl; i wish i had family to fall back on, but instead i come to orlando and sleep on couches and try to piece my life together even though it always just falls apart no matter what so what the fuck is the point

GOD DAMN SHITTY MOODS HFJKHfhdsjjehrueie9r8

i'm going to new york after christmas and from there i'm taking a bus to philly for a few days. someone come with me ( LOOKING AT YOU JOHN )

Current Music: orchid s/t

posting an entry to say that rorschach fucking rules and i have exams tomorrow and i should be sleeping but i'm not

Current Music: rorschach and mongoloids hahaahh

exams suck
living situations suck
student loans that take a million years to come suck
money sucks
i can't find my wallet that sucks too
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first pedicab shift- made no money. its cool though, i had lots of fun and met a lot of interesting people.. i actually enjoyed working. legs? dead. i can't walk without my legs shaking and wobbling all over the place. NEED PRACTICE. also, you would think that businessmen would be generous tippers. WRONG. not only are they cheap, but the vast majority i came in contact with where genuine dickheads. whatever though, i'm getting paid to ride a bike around which is pretty sweet. ps looking forward to this weekend and hopefully seeing this cute girl RADDDDD

edit its now 5:30 AM and i haven't gone to sleep yet, i've been listening to 13 and god which prompted me to make this just now, its really weird and makes no sense and i should probably go to sleep

Current Music: amebix-begining of the end

6:30 am..... orlando.... still no sleep...... two interviews and pedicab training tomorrow......dammitfdsl;fkl;dkf

oh and i hate my parents for not ever talking to me ever

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